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1. How long have you known you are part of the LGBT community?
My estimation is that I've always been a part of the community, even before I discovered it myself. I was 12 or 13 when I first started to think that I might be transsexual in some way, however.
2. Was it a struggle (emotionally) for you at the beginning?
Yes, it was. I was totally devastated because I didn't know what to do about my situation at the time. All I knew was that I didn't feel comfortable in my own body.
3. How did you start to discover your sexuality? (Example, thoughts, feelings…ex)
I remember something that happened when I was very young. Perhaps in the age of... 5? Something like that. Anyway, I remember how I started to think about how I would "never be pretty, because I'm a girl". I started crying profusely at that time.
And then, when I entered puberty, my emotional well-being went totally downhill with the changes of my body. I cried a lot during this period; partly because I had no idea as to why I was feeling that way and partly because I just knew somehow that I didn't want to be a girl. As I said before, I was starting to think I might be transsexual or transgender at that time.
4. What part of the LGBT community do you belong to? (Gay, Bisexual, Transgender, ex)
Transgender. FtM; meaning I'm a female who wants to be male.
5. How long have you been out of the closet, or if your not, do you plan to be at some point?
I've never really "come out" in that term of the word. I guess that my parents started to suspect that I was transgender when I refused to wear girl's clothes due to my lack of comfort when wearing them.
6. Does your parent/parents know, or will they ever know?
Yes, my parents know about it. I think that they have known ever since my turbulent high school-years.
7. Did they take it well, or do you predict that they will take it well?
I didn't exactly give them an easy time back then. I was really emotional about the whole thing and I couldn't really explain my feelings either, since I thought that they would never understand. But I suppose they've gotten used to it by now. It's hardly something we ever talk about, except when I have one of these periods where I feel really down about my gender. My mom actually asked me once if I wanted to perform a sex-change. I said that I wasn't sure.
8. Would you…
a. Hold hands with your same gender partner in public?
I don't see why not?
b. Kiss them in public?
Nah. I mean, I could do it just to be out of the ordinary and surprise people. But I'm neither lesbian or bi, so I suppose that kiss would only be a "friend-kiss".
c. Introduce them as 'your girl/boyfriend' to family and friends that haven't met them?
No.
9. What 3 things ANGERS THE HELL outta you about people's terrible 'opinions' about the LGBT community or certain comments, acts, ex…
1) It's a sin to be LGBT.
2) Transgendered people are sissies.
3) That being LGBT is wrong. Really, why would the "normal" people have the right to tell us how to be?
10. Do you like/love someone right now of the same gender?
No.
11. If so, do they know?
12. Have you told someone about your sexuality and they took it badly?
None of my friends have but I guess that the only one I've told that have taken it badly would be my little-brother. Whenever this topic is brought up, he says that he doesn't want a "brother" and that he wants to keep his sister. But really, when it comes to this thing, what I feel is the most important. I don't want to stay in a body that's not my own just to keep people around me happy.
13. Are you proud of whom you are?
I'm proud to be a part of the LGBT-community, but I'm not fully proud of myself, considering that I was born in the wrong body.
My estimation is that I've always been a part of the community, even before I discovered it myself. I was 12 or 13 when I first started to think that I might be transsexual in some way, however.
2. Was it a struggle (emotionally) for you at the beginning?
Yes, it was. I was totally devastated because I didn't know what to do about my situation at the time. All I knew was that I didn't feel comfortable in my own body.
3. How did you start to discover your sexuality? (Example, thoughts, feelings…ex)
I remember something that happened when I was very young. Perhaps in the age of... 5? Something like that. Anyway, I remember how I started to think about how I would "never be pretty, because I'm a girl". I started crying profusely at that time.
And then, when I entered puberty, my emotional well-being went totally downhill with the changes of my body. I cried a lot during this period; partly because I had no idea as to why I was feeling that way and partly because I just knew somehow that I didn't want to be a girl. As I said before, I was starting to think I might be transsexual or transgender at that time.
4. What part of the LGBT community do you belong to? (Gay, Bisexual, Transgender, ex)
Transgender. FtM; meaning I'm a female who wants to be male.
5. How long have you been out of the closet, or if your not, do you plan to be at some point?
I've never really "come out" in that term of the word. I guess that my parents started to suspect that I was transgender when I refused to wear girl's clothes due to my lack of comfort when wearing them.
6. Does your parent/parents know, or will they ever know?
Yes, my parents know about it. I think that they have known ever since my turbulent high school-years.
7. Did they take it well, or do you predict that they will take it well?
I didn't exactly give them an easy time back then. I was really emotional about the whole thing and I couldn't really explain my feelings either, since I thought that they would never understand. But I suppose they've gotten used to it by now. It's hardly something we ever talk about, except when I have one of these periods where I feel really down about my gender. My mom actually asked me once if I wanted to perform a sex-change. I said that I wasn't sure.
8. Would you…
a. Hold hands with your same gender partner in public?
I don't see why not?
b. Kiss them in public?
Nah. I mean, I could do it just to be out of the ordinary and surprise people. But I'm neither lesbian or bi, so I suppose that kiss would only be a "friend-kiss".
c. Introduce them as 'your girl/boyfriend' to family and friends that haven't met them?
No.
9. What 3 things ANGERS THE HELL outta you about people's terrible 'opinions' about the LGBT community or certain comments, acts, ex…
1) It's a sin to be LGBT.
2) Transgendered people are sissies.
3) That being LGBT is wrong. Really, why would the "normal" people have the right to tell us how to be?
10. Do you like/love someone right now of the same gender?
No.
11. If so, do they know?
12. Have you told someone about your sexuality and they took it badly?
None of my friends have but I guess that the only one I've told that have taken it badly would be my little-brother. Whenever this topic is brought up, he says that he doesn't want a "brother" and that he wants to keep his sister. But really, when it comes to this thing, what I feel is the most important. I don't want to stay in a body that's not my own just to keep people around me happy.
13. Are you proud of whom you are?
I'm proud to be a part of the LGBT-community, but I'm not fully proud of myself, considering that I was born in the wrong body.
Idk, just read if you want to. A quiz where I explain my transsexuality. To some of you, perhaps I just got even weirder? Whatever the case, this is who I am!
Also, I'm not the kind of transsexual where I dress in drag. I just feel I was born with the wrong sex. People tend to misunderstand that sometimes...
Also, I'm not the kind of transsexual where I dress in drag. I just feel I was born with the wrong sex. People tend to misunderstand that sometimes...
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Dude, you aren't I'm a female who wants to be male. You're just male. Also transsexuality is a sexuality. Anyway, you're really brave for coming out dude!